i look at her

she looks at me

then i sit and ponder

“are we simply the same being?”

hell no.

‘cause she’s a damn bird.

i just made a scrambled egg breakfast for myself

and what can she do?

attempt to make a fake nest out of wall street journal?

i look at her

she looks at me

then we both sit and cry

about our depressing victories

crazy dream last night

so
here we go

for some reason this really creepy dude wanted to kill me. i don't know why.
either way, i was on the run from him. there were many failed attempts at him killing me, all of which involved him trying to snipe me and me moving in enough time, but unfortunately allowing him to kill random people in his pursuit.

anyway, so he finally got me. i was walking in the main library and this girl comes up to me asking if i have a pen for her to borrow, and i run away cause i'm fearful of pretty much anyone at this point in the dream. so i keep running, and she's just confused looking.  i pause for a minute.

just long enough for her to pull a sharp pen out of her blazer pocket, toss it in my direction and pierce my heart. i could feel the pain and the wound forming, but for some reason i was still alive.

i ran out of the library and jumped into a car to run away so he couldn't finish the job.
and the car i jumped into had kitties and puppies in it!

it was so cute.

but the rest of the dream was so weird.

also, in the dream i woke up to another dream where i was sitting in a random living room with homer and alex telling them about the crazy dream i'd just had.

soooo

i'm gonna make a list here of my favorite songs hip hop/rap/r&b right now.


kanye west--
devil in a new dress.
runaway love remix.
family business. (it's that time of year)
we major.
touch the sky. (who am i kidding? that one is always on the list)
heard 'em say.
roses.
g.o.o.d. friday (minus big sean's verse, what was he thinking?!)

n.e.r.d.--
tape you.
maybe.
things are getting better.
run to the sun.
yeah you.

mos def--
love.
umi says.
sun, moon, stars.

common--
be.
faithful.
come close.
the light.
the food.

d'angelo--
one mo'gin.
africa.
chicken grease.
spanish joint.

a tribe called quest--
jazz (we got).
find a way.
bonita applebum.
wordplay.
jam.
check the rhime.

jay-z--
i just wanna love you (give it to me).
(always be my) sunshine.
change clothes.
excuse me, miss.
can i get a.
girls best friend.

amongst many others, however these just make me smile without fail.

i think i'm gonna put up my pictures for sale somewhere.
maybe not on etsy cause you gotta pay for that stuff to be hosted, but maybe just on a blog or by word of mouth.

will you guys pay for my hopes and dreams (of one day writing a book and opening up a cafe/bakery) and buy some of my prints?
i give you good prices!

while time crawls 

so slowly it could have a love sickness like mine

always thought you'd be around for a while 

send your love back to me
 from wherever you are

straight to the hole in my heart