i missed my calling to become a disney channel star..

i just whistled aloud to this picture.

alex and jimmy think i'm weird for it.

honestly though, i don't usually see men as meat (or at least i try not to, anyway).. however it is way too hard after finding this menwithscruff tumblr.

both of them don't understand the aesthetic appeal of men. i'll never know why. maybe i'm just superbly hormonal (more than likely the case), but i'm quick to swoon.

i believe

that my life's gonna see

the love i give

return to me

i found these kickass headphones in my room.
i feel like one of those hipster boys that walk around with their big bose headphones around campus.

fortunately i'm just using them before i go to bed.
i can't hear a thing!
WOOH!
except, of course, the beauty that is common+john mayer+kanye west.
anybody else think about how good the song "go" simply sounds? lyrics aside... it just sounds.. right.

which brings me to my point. there's so much underrated music that just sounds right. for me, more often than not, i feel that it's r&b and lesser known hip hop that gets most overlooked. obviously it's a matter of taste, but the layers seen in these two genres are ridiculous.

break you off by the roots.
how many people know that song?

not enough.

if you're reading this, you should take the time to listen to the following songs.. i feel like they're some of the best produced (contemporary) soulful tracks:

1. estelle & john legend-you are
2. musiq soulchild-babygirl
3. anthony hamilton-do you feel me?
4. van hunt-priest or police
5. raphael saadiq & d'angelo-be here
6. d'angelo-one mo'gin
7. n*e*r*d-run to the sun
8. common-come close
9. q-tip-gettin' up

ugh

i need to get my shit together

it's funny how

easily i get affected by other people's emotions. i know it happens to everyone..however i think myself in particular might be affected too much, especially with those who seem to not really reciprocate similar thoughts.  people are funny...

i love them anyway.


i forgot how nice it is to sleep in shorts.
i feel happier with this weather... oh how i love march.


now if i could just get my sleep schedule back on track..

home!

Would you like to be the love of my life for always, and always watch over me?
To square my blunders and share my dreams
One day with caviar, next day a chocolate bar.
Would you like to take the merry-go-round I'll lead you?
I'll need you wait and you'll see.
I hope in your horoscope there is room for a dope who adores you.
That's what makes the only dream of my life come true.
For the love of my life is you.

Would you like to take the merry-go-round I'll lead you?
I'll need you, just wait and you'll see.
I hope in your horoscope there is room for a dope who adores you.
That's what makes the only dream of my life come true.
For the love of my life is you.

Fever

I have always known

that you will visit my grave.

I see myself as a small brown bird,

perhaps a sparrow, watching you

from a low branch as you pray

in front of my name.

I will hear you 

sound out my epitaph: Aqui descanse 

una mujer que quiso volar

You will recall telling me

that you once dreamed in Spanish,

and felt the words

lift you into flight.

The sound of wings

will startle you when you say “volar,”

and you will understand.

--Judith Ortiz-Cofer "Volar"

The trip was quite successful. Obviously it was hard for me not to tear up when we left Raleigh, but I pulled myself together for the drive back.  I don't know why, I suppose just because it is family, but I feel like there are no other people in the world that get me so well.  Kaya just comes flying down after a year of seeing her, and it just feels right. Already I've laughed more than I have all semester. 

      I thought I was excited about the o chem test being moved, now I have to worry about it on the same day as my british art exam. Phooey. I'll manage I suppose. Sadly the only thing I'm truly worried about about next week is the five minute spanish presentation I have on Monday.  I wish there was a way to get out of it, but honestly I need to man up about talking in front of the class.  At least it's only in front of 12 people.

Maybe I can bake cookies to distract them with my cooking prowess.

I'm so entirely thrilled about "el Carolina de Norte" (en concordancia con mi maestra este manana). I can't wait to play with my cousin's children again.  They are entirely too adorable for words.

I can't believe it's been more than a year

it's getting harder to not pick up phone calls, but i must focus! i know if i do end up picking up i'll try and see people.


must make a 103 on this test.
i mean, 85.

disappearing acts are no fun.