but anyway, i think there might be a cure to my problems. i'm not entirely sure yet, and i'm only in the steps towards progress, but i think i might know the solution. emotionally, as you guys know, i'm doing pretty well i think. there's a guy that makes me smile on a minute-to-minute basis that i keep around and i have a pretty awesome set of friends.
physically, however, is a whole other story. the doc told me "gluten free" (and potentially dairy free) might be the way to go... my thoughts wandered to everything i love: food, chocolate, more food, delicious baked treats, etc. and maybe shed a tear or two for my cooking blog (i'll update that soon, promise).
but my mom reminded me that i know how to cook lentils cause i'm indian or whatever, and then my aunt reminded me that the health problems i have are far worse than a lack of cookies in my life (yeah right!!!!!!... jk)
so anyway.. this week (the first week of this) was surprisingly not that hard, and as michael put it while talking to kristen the other day "you know, she's not only taking it really well, she just made the best meals ever these past few days".
i tried making a family classic, kichadi, the other night. and boy howdy was it delicious. first time cooking it on my own (mom on the phone, of course)! i also started making berry smoothies with orange juice and yogurt each night, ensuring a breakfast the next morning that would replace my usual bran flakes. turns out, it's easier to replace gluten-filled items than i thought it would be. i can eat cornmeal, so michael and i made black bean crepes the other night that were super deluxe. and then finally, the next day i took some of the left over crepe filling and made a honey-lime glazed slab of grilled chicken to put on top...deeelicious.
if anything, this diet is pushing me to become more creative and explore options i never knew existed before. cooking things that are so tasty and being a healthier (happier, more energetic) person apparently can go hand in hand. and i think how wonderful i'll feel in a couple months will be worth everything i'm putting behind me (i'll have to start looking for another source of happiness to replace dairy). i haven't been myself this past year and i want to get back into that sorta thing. since october i've kind of holed myself up in my room, writing, reading, thinking, over thinking, hoping, retracing steps, wondering, wishing, and dreaming. a lot of dreaming. i get a lot of sleep. a lot.
sorry to those who maybe wanted to hang out and i was too lazy to leave my couch.
time to go to the regular 7-8 hour sleep-filled nights, waking up at 7 and going to bed at 11:30, and making the most of my day without feeling overwhelmingly tired, unmotivated, and sick.
april can and will be a good month.
farmhouse, rucha's new summer headquarters and hopefully where she'll get all buff and stuff
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